After not being to church in many years, last weekend I decided give it a try. What a nice feeling to be with good people talking about the one and only.
I know I was not the only one who visited the house of God over the Easter Weekend, for many felt the same way I did. Going to church after such a long time felt good, what with internalsing all the confusion of the world.
I must confess that after the service I was so relieved for I felt Him inside me.
Since Covid-19 I hadn’t set foot in the house of God. But on Good Friday, 18 April, I could feel I was in the right place, yet it was confusing too. Everything was different, after all church has a special atmosphere, in which one is transported to other realms.
Yet I must say, church rules can be tiresome as well, which can really rankle when one isn’t used to them – you know, sitting and standing, then kneeling, which can be exhausting.
And something told me even before I left my house that I may be the “moemish” in the congregation on the day, making all the blunders. People who know St John’s Apostolic Church will tell you they have their own ways of doing things. The first blunder I did was during the monetary offerings.
I hadn’t banked on the collection rounds being made. I had given all my money already, so when the collection came I had no money. I was somewhat embarrassed about it. Another “moemish” act was to leave the church before the time. I was sitting at the back, next to the door. Beside me was a guy who looked bored. At least once he said to me he wanted to go out for a smoke. Honestly I wasn’t listening anymore and minded my own business.
I don’t know, I saw others stand up and approach the door, which was open, so I just darted out thinking it was time to go. Looking back I saw no-one was following me, so I pretended to go to the loo. Then I suddenly had this feeling I didn’t belong there, and asked myself “why are you here?” After all the excitement at the beginning self-doubt crept in. I just think I need to go to church more often and get back in the groove.
